Just another day.

this is really silly of me, but i can't help but look at my ex's tumblr. it's not that i miss him or that i'm curious about his life. to be honest, i just want to make sure that he misses me. yeah, that's completely fucked up and really stupid. trust me, i know. i wanna know that i was the highlight of his life, but at the same time, i totally fucked it up. you know how they say murderer's tend to return to the scene of the crime? or something like that. yeah, i feel like that's what i'm doing. i wanna see what damage i've done. am i really that cruel? ahah. maybe. well from what i've seen, he's gone back to his old habits. partying, drinking, smoking, the usual. yes, that kinda pisses me off. i know it shouldn't and it's none of my business. is it that i still care? meh. hell naw. but i just hate how the whole time we were together. he said that he's above the influence and all that bullshit. makes me wonder what else he's lied about. damn. he's not even worth it. okay. damn, fuck my life. why the fuck does he still get to me? and his posts say all this stuff about exes and what not. well, i was his last ex, but i don't know. supposedly he's happy and all that shit with some anonymous girl. haha. whatever. i already know who it is.