so basically, i feel like sh!t. ever since school let out, i've been doing really crappy. it's summer vacation. i didn't expect much to happen. well not lot if things happened yet. but the things that have already happened are really stupid and making me feel like sh!t. there's no reason for me to feel that way. the first thing that happened, well it's actually funny. i fell and my bruises are bugging the cr@p out of me!
but the thing that sucks the most is, i'm broke. =[ i think i need a job. but i'm only 14. is that even legal, or would that be child labor? haha. lets see, what other problems do i have.
i need to sell lasertag tickets. i "sold" 5. me, jolly, sam, markee, sister. they're (exluding sister) gonna pay when they get there. i don't even know for sure if they're going. i'm still making them pay. i have to sell seven tickets! my friends want it to be like a bonding thing. we're going on july six. if my other friends want to go, obviously i'd have to be there, right? i don't feel like paying that much. i don't even know what laser tag is like. something about shooting lasers? yeah, thats pretty much all i know. woooo.
it's possible i have ADD. or i just have my moments. i get distracted easily... like... mall i bumped into a stupid sunglasses stand! i thought it was pretty funny, except i hit the corner. sad. i stop when i see bright colors in the corner of my eye. same deal with shiny things. crazy.
okaaay. so! there was this dude, right. gosh, i feel like if i say anything it's gonna be too obvious. let's try. there's this dude. he's almost like one of my best friends, but not quite. well, we've been talking for a looooong time. talks a lot. [if he put all the things he's told me in a book, it would be thicker than a dictionary.] he told me he liked me & that made everything awkward & what not. then he said i've changed. truth is, i havent changed!! he only likes my good side. ha. i have a bad side & he doesnt like it. =] i told him i wanted more piercings & a tattoo. haha. he's like you've changed! i don't know you anymore! bring back the old cassidy. and stuff like that. it kinda made me mad. so yeah. he thinks people will look down on my if i have a pierced nose and like... 4 more piercings on each ear. that is soooo not true. & i've been talking to his little brother about things you dont need to know about. my friend is not happy with that. he thinks his brother is fcked up and he's "big brother's" responsibility. they're only one year apart. lets just say, he's a preteen boy!! what do you think they talk about when KUYA is not around? mhmm. and that specific "kuya" is mad cuz i like bad influences. TREY SONGZ IS NOT A BAD INFLUENCE! he just likes s3x. or he likes singing about s3x. & he's jealous that i'm talking to an old dude. he's like 17. i dont like him like that, foo. & i think he's gay... trey songz is older, but he's gorgeous! & obviously there's no chance of getting that. haha. but my friend's just gonna have to deal! what else...
one of my best friends is having family problems. i feel bad. her family thinks she's a bi+ch! this is real talk, homie. xxxx. if you knew her, she is definitely not. i'm more than she is. her fam talks behind her back and all that. they love her, but they dont like her. they're all nice to her in public. i dont really know what's going on at home. yesterday was the worst day of her life according to her. she was bringing me down with her. hmmm. i hope she doesn't do anything to herself. she's not that kinda person tho.
AND MY SISTER! omg. she told my coach (i don't really know what to call her without saying her name) that i said something bad... grr. i said i shouldve been in the front. but i was just pissy cuz i was in the back. x___x' i was in the back cuz i was late & they already had their formation. who knows. i couldve been somewhere else. & my sister's the one who said i was better than some of the people they put in front. but hey, i'm just bitter. which is why i'm gonna die alone. i havent been on the team long, but it's freaking awesome. i'm ready for the stress! even tho i'm kinda weak. but hey.
ohhh. and i'm anemic. anyone wanna tell me what that means? i know it means i dont have a lot of iron & can lead to lukemia, but what else? can i die from it? that's kinda scary. i still have stuff to say!
i havent signed up for school yet. :P that's bad right? i can't sign up anytime soon because they're dealing with graduation and everything right now. i have to do it at the end of july or the first week of august. all my friends already finished. am i gonna get stuck with all the sucky classes!? hopefully not. most likely, because school starts in september and a lot of people already signed up & stuff. oh well. imma get lost and junk. just thought i'd tell you.
this stuff might not really be a big deal. i just thought u should know why i feel like sh!t and maybe it's my period making everything seem worse than it really is. i dont see how that actually works tho.
well... peace out.
but the thing that sucks the most is, i'm broke. =[ i think i need a job. but i'm only 14. is that even legal, or would that be child labor? haha. lets see, what other problems do i have.
i need to sell lasertag tickets. i "sold" 5. me, jolly, sam, markee, sister. they're (exluding sister) gonna pay when they get there. i don't even know for sure if they're going. i'm still making them pay. i have to sell seven tickets! my friends want it to be like a bonding thing. we're going on july six. if my other friends want to go, obviously i'd have to be there, right? i don't feel like paying that much. i don't even know what laser tag is like. something about shooting lasers? yeah, thats pretty much all i know. woooo.
it's possible i have ADD. or i just have my moments. i get distracted easily... like... mall i bumped into a stupid sunglasses stand! i thought it was pretty funny, except i hit the corner. sad. i stop when i see bright colors in the corner of my eye. same deal with shiny things. crazy.
okaaay. so! there was this dude, right. gosh, i feel like if i say anything it's gonna be too obvious. let's try. there's this dude. he's almost like one of my best friends, but not quite. well, we've been talking for a looooong time. talks a lot. [if he put all the things he's told me in a book, it would be thicker than a dictionary.] he told me he liked me & that made everything awkward & what not. then he said i've changed. truth is, i havent changed!! he only likes my good side. ha. i have a bad side & he doesnt like it. =] i told him i wanted more piercings & a tattoo. haha. he's like you've changed! i don't know you anymore! bring back the old cassidy. and stuff like that. it kinda made me mad. so yeah. he thinks people will look down on my if i have a pierced nose and like... 4 more piercings on each ear. that is soooo not true. & i've been talking to his little brother about things you dont need to know about. my friend is not happy with that. he thinks his brother is fcked up and he's "big brother's" responsibility. they're only one year apart. lets just say, he's a preteen boy!! what do you think they talk about when KUYA is not around? mhmm. and that specific "kuya" is mad cuz i like bad influences. TREY SONGZ IS NOT A BAD INFLUENCE! he just likes s3x. or he likes singing about s3x. & he's jealous that i'm talking to an old dude. he's like 17. i dont like him like that, foo. & i think he's gay... trey songz is older, but he's gorgeous! & obviously there's no chance of getting that. haha. but my friend's just gonna have to deal! what else...
one of my best friends is having family problems. i feel bad. her family thinks she's a bi+ch! this is real talk, homie. xxxx. if you knew her, she is definitely not. i'm more than she is. her fam talks behind her back and all that. they love her, but they dont like her. they're all nice to her in public. i dont really know what's going on at home. yesterday was the worst day of her life according to her. she was bringing me down with her. hmmm. i hope she doesn't do anything to herself. she's not that kinda person tho.
AND MY SISTER! omg. she told my coach (i don't really know what to call her without saying her name) that i said something bad... grr. i said i shouldve been in the front. but i was just pissy cuz i was in the back. x___x' i was in the back cuz i was late & they already had their formation. who knows. i couldve been somewhere else. & my sister's the one who said i was better than some of the people they put in front. but hey, i'm just bitter. which is why i'm gonna die alone. i havent been on the team long, but it's freaking awesome. i'm ready for the stress! even tho i'm kinda weak. but hey.
ohhh. and i'm anemic. anyone wanna tell me what that means? i know it means i dont have a lot of iron & can lead to lukemia, but what else? can i die from it? that's kinda scary. i still have stuff to say!
i havent signed up for school yet. :P that's bad right? i can't sign up anytime soon because they're dealing with graduation and everything right now. i have to do it at the end of july or the first week of august. all my friends already finished. am i gonna get stuck with all the sucky classes!? hopefully not. most likely, because school starts in september and a lot of people already signed up & stuff. oh well. imma get lost and junk. just thought i'd tell you.
this stuff might not really be a big deal. i just thought u should know why i feel like sh!t and maybe it's my period making everything seem worse than it really is. i dont see how that actually works tho.
well... peace out.
No comments:
Post a Comment