hello again! so yeah.... life. i dont even know what im feeling anymore. i guess you could say i've reached emotional paralysis. just kidding, its not that bad. i am basically coping with the sadness i was struck with in december. i think what i'm feeling is a mixture of regret, guilt, and sadness. i'm sure theres more to it than that. i don't like thinking about it too much. i feel an intense frustration with myself, thats for sure. my emotions are affecting me physically as well. its as if my nerves are feeling the stress as well! i guess when they say, "getting on my nerves," it could literally mean senses! at least in my case, it does. anyways, on a brighter note! i've been listening to really chill music. i am in love with corinne bailey rae. shes a goddess to me, oh my god. her songs arent depressing for the most part and i just feel so calm- like a musical high. her voice is so perfect. haha.