Hello blogger. A lot has happened since my last post. Rather than filling you in and catching up, im just going to talk about my current dilemma. So i've been trying to lose weight since i stopped dancing regulsrly. Ive tried to go on diets, throwing up, not eating, water fasting, and god knows what else. Now, i am 18, about 5 feet, and weigh about 110.6 pounds. That may seem pretty normal, But the least i weighed this year was 98 pounds- a 12 pound difference. I am definitely not satisfied with my appearance. To say it bluntly, i feel fat and disgusting. I may have distorted ideals, but you have no idea what i feel when i go out with my 5'3"102lb friends. My weight is the biggest stress factor in my life, and when I'm stressed, I eat. I'm having such a hard time because I don't have and healthy food at home and my parents refuse to listen to anything I say. I request to get more fruits and vegetables; they come home with bags of chips and soda bottles. My mother says, you dont need that stuff, just stop eating. What the fuck. I'm going to try this water diet ordeal again... I mean, I do have water. -____-