MEAN.

i've been informed that i have ugly taste in guys! =[
trey songz isn't ugly... his gf is. =]
omarion.... mehhh.
drew roy. not ugly!
tg. not ugly... but kinda looks like enrique iglesias. o_o
pharrel isnt ugly. he's just old.
that one guy... whose name i forgot... he was hot. haha.
channing tatum was just a tad bit faggish.
rob hoffman. old. put on weight since i've last seen him.
mm... ahahaha.
bryan puspos! the fact that he's a dancer adds to it.
eric! that one dude in timothydelaghetto's vids??
alex from wassabi.
gabe bondoc is a cutie face. lol.
bowwow... not that bad.
chingy. bi?

lmao. i got nothing else to say.
i already said enough. haha.

imbored.

If it isnt love
Why do I feel this way
Why does he stay on my mind
If it isnt love
Why does it hurt so bad
Make me feel so sad inside
If it isnt love

i love new edition! =]
no personal connection...
it kinda has one... but it's not like i'm in love.

oh dear.

i was listening to a drake song.
i remembered something that happened in my dream.. like a week ago.
lmao. i had a dream that i was attracted to him. sick sh!t.
too ugly. im attracted to his songs. -___-

yO.

today was a really fun day! i went to popeyes. =P before practice. woot woot holla. got fries & that tuesday chicken thing. and mountain dew! haha.
had practice. which was actually pretty fun. i actually got most of the sh!t. i just cant remember it right now. =] i can only remember up to... one of the "5"s. the one where you squat. haha.
argued with this one girl. ugh, people these days.
tv show taping monday. good answer, b!+ch?
twitter. i actully signed up. how the hell, man.

lettinggo.

that sh!t's hard!! damnnn.
imma have to do it.
just... i can't right now.
too much!
i'm too lazy.
it's loooooove.
haha.










but on the bright side! there's a new guyy. lmao.

mysigh

omgaaaaah. 1st coed practice! funnerific. awkward... cartwheels and strange dips? funnnn. forgetting the routine in front of everyone? funnn. i feel bad for my partner... lmao. i think im too heavy. we weigh about the same tho... o_o i needa eat better. its coo'.

todaaaaay was an okay day. better than yesterday, for sure. controlled my emotions... lmao. except that i woke up crying... haha. and i wrote like a freaking... ughhh. sick. lmao. i would never do that!! im not a cry baby. i hate being a girl... once a month. i talked to the.... yeah. i was writing in the drunk state of mind. =] howww the hell. whatever.
practice seemed really short... blah. dont remember military. omg! i fell out of my headstand, now i have a bruise on my elbow. ahahaha.
what am i gonna do without drill? lol.

i HATE getting all emotional with ppl other than... sorry to say... brant. like that dork is the only person who knows how it feels! when i did today, i was like... awkward....


well ehhh.


others' failures please me.

boredom.

protection.
friendship.
stuff.
love.
humor.
honesty.
happiness.
spazz.
music.
crack.
lmao.
ugh, boys.
OBSESSION.

weekendspt2.

oh dayum. today. was the worst day... of the month.
woke up at 10. got up. computer. tv. texted. texted the wrong person obviously. made the mistake of calling him my best friend. shall i just talk about that for a moment? yep. kaaay. there's this dude. my friend, whatever. i pissed him off somehow, & yeah... still is i believe. and of course, if someone hates me or whatever, the feeling's gonna be mutual! so like right now.... i'm pissed. lmao. but it's nothing. like.. i'm good with making things better, but like... idk what even happened. my friend said forget about him. but that's freakin hard dammit. so i'm trying to avoid starting a convo with that person. if he wants to talk... cool. let's talk then. my friend BRANT. was being the best todaaaay. more than other days. haha. he helped. lmao. i always complain to him. we do that a lot. we have issues. -___-' but it's coo. he's the only one i can trust. like for reals. lmao. okay what is this, a hack? kay. "wtf?!? if u can, throw it away! don't think about him! changing the subject. Nice weather, huh?" oh yeeeah forgot to mention something about that. lmao. IT'S OVER. freeeee. now i can like whoever without feeling guilty. but yeaah. the day sucked... except the cookies & smoothies. & the conversation with brant. & the fact that i made coed dance!! somehow. l.m.a.o. that's riiiight! i think i'm being tested tho. i hope i pass! maybe today wasnt that bad. just the 1st half. hmmm. boys... you can only have one as your friend, huh? i think too much.

weekendspt1.

saturday was hella funn. my daaay:
woke up at 6:44 am to find that i had 2 missed calls from ernesto. lmao. tried to get ready as fast as i could. went to ralphs, bought ice. went to the carwash. like 6 people were there. i wasnt even late. what a waste of rush. i coulda spend like... an hour more sleeping. but itss all good. it didnt start until like... 9. had fun conversing. aww. martin got the same phone as me. -__-' he basically stole most of my songs. haha. not cool. his looks nicer... well it's new... & he basically taught me how to use my own phone. well i guess thats good. i learned how to use blu tooth. but then i forgot. lol. "owned". yeh. its all good tho. then a car came. me & shelby went advertising. horrible. we're the worst advertisers everrr! lmao. texting & what not. lmao. flipping signs!! kay then we were corrected by like 3 ppl. so we just left. washing cars isnt bad. its pretty fun. [oh damn i just missed 11:11 by a minute just now] drying sucks. got sprayed by the damn hose a million times by those damn hoes. JK. [love you ernieeee, martin, & randy (sorta)] got used to it after a while. cuz then the weather changed. next week i'm bringing a swim suit. haha. then... chilled for a bit. ate. then was forced to advertise. i just walked behind randy as he shouted things. honestly, he pissed me off soooo bad when we were walking around. details on the box. ughh. lmao. but whatever. thats done with. anyways. went back to the washing & drying. after i saw juliannnn. lmao. then he started texting one of his friends with my phone. i read the convo... cuz u know, it's my phone... hmmm. what happened julian? lmao. jk. he left. i pissed off the person he was texting. lmao. it's my job tho. washing... drying. watched randy park a car. LMAO. funny sh!t. i took a picture but you cant really tell how he did it. then everything was oberr. we cleaned up. they made me carry the biggest box. even the skaters noticed. but its okay. when i got up there the whole ballet thing. blah. came out... martin, mr abusive, carried me down the stairs.. upside down. scariest sh!t in my life. i could've died. lol. but it was fun. if u saw, you wouldve been laughing. haha. but its okay. ate fruit. =] martin doesnt know how to use a fork. went to the pool... didnt go in. went back.. went home. realized my phone was dying. REALIZED martin has my charger. turned off my phone. turned it back on. crashed. killed my phone. woke up at 4 this morning. went back to sleep. woke up at 10.

fckdupfridays.

friday beach trips. blaaah. usual. burnt and crispy back, lunchables, ginormous ditches, name in the sand, textage, dead phone.
by the end of the summer, imma have skin cancer. but heeeyy. i get a tan every friday. so no more pale skin. no more "mistisa". i'm a dark filipino b3tch. i blend in... which is kinda sad. *sigh* my anemia will make me look paler. gotta love those health conditions, right?
my back gets burned every beach trip. well, we've only had two, but i got burned on both. on the same place. why do people find it so fascinating to peel the skin off my back? whatever.
lunchables... i dont even eat at the beach. i eat on the bus.
ditches. the dudes (and erielle) like to dig huge ditches. for what reason? who knows. maybe it's a rest-ditch? nah. they just piss in the ocean. am i right?
everyone writes their name in the sand.
texting my friends kills my phone. i hardly ever touched it on friday tho!
kay. general sh!et.

"When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."

-dr. suess.

cute quote.
he's a genious!!
so obviously, i've never been in love.
i'm in a blogging mood.

fifththe... i give up.

sooo i haven't been consistently taking my iron pills. i take em! isn't that enough? like, am i gonna die if i don't? holy cr@p i started that sentence with "like". that's a horrible habit. it's bad enough that i say it out loud, but even when i'm typing? it makes me sound like a ditz. but anyway! i should have a specific time to take my iron pill. normally i'd just take it when i can remember to. well you know what? i don't feel like talking about that.
so right now i'm like trying to find the right position on my bed. that doesn't sound right, does it? well lets see. it's so hot that i'm not comfortable wherever i lie down on my bed. i'm sitting up now! woot woot hollaaa. i'm pretty comfortable, besides the fact the i'm burnt on most of my upper body! i went to the beach on friday. speaking of friday! it was a very interesting day. lemme tell u about it, yeah? this is how it went.
i'mma tell you every little detail lol.

i woke up hella early so i could get my mom to sign my permission slip (she goes to woke at like, 8). so i get all that cr@p done. ya know, got money & stuff for the bus. then i went on the computer. myspace, aim, the usual. i start talking to one of my friends. he wanted to go out to eat & play ball. well i just woke up & stuff. i wasnt really in the mood, but i was hella hungry. so i say sure, then i took like a "quick" shower. got dressed. packed my duffel-bag for the beach. i grab a basketball, ever so slowly. then went outside to my friend's car. blah. blah. we ate chili cheese fries at tommy's. really good, btw. didnt have time to play ball. dropped me off at school... where there was a whole load of people lined up to go on the bus. i was like. perfect timing! so yeah. waited in line for a while. got on the bus. smushed up in the back. it was soooo packed! at least i got to sit near my friends. misty, erielle, ninap., quincy, carla, shelby and yoon. but my @$$ was falling off the seat! we had to put three on a seat. my butt isnt big... but i was falling off that stupid seat. it was fun tho! not the falling off the seat part, but the bus ride! it was kinda cool how you couldnt even see the floor when you looked down the aisle. all you saw were legs & bags. everyone brought people! i didn't know you could do that. i thought she said no to that. oh well. i'm still not bringing anyone to any of the beach trips. it's bonding time! we waited in the bus for almost, if not, an hour. it was so annoying. i think we were waiting for people. blah we finally took off to the beach. chyeeeah. we got there. and i, for some weird reason, was so fascinated by the sand. really weird. so we found a spot.... actually we followed ernie to a spot. we got all our sh!t together. i hesitated to take off my shirt. i'm so freaking self conscious! but i did it. haha. it was a "screw it" moment. then i put sunblock. =] then me and erielle ran to the water. played. freaking cold. got used to it. i've noticed that erielle never takes off that necklace. o_o kay then we went in & out of the water. blah blah blah. skip. then! i forgot what happened next. we played a game. well most of us watched. planks. i took off my shirt & i didnt know what to do with it so i threw it in front of me! we had to do planks in the water. a wave came & got my shirt. lmao. but a little girl saved it! she was sooo cute. lol. we all ran into the water after wards because we were all muddy and gross. we played in the water. clogged up my ears & shiet. i still kinda cant hear in my right ear. so got out... ate... got lectured... i couldnt really hear tho. got a shaved ice. cherry, strawberry kiwi, & lemon lime! traveled. came back. practiced headstands & texted people. my sister, my friend, & jolly gal. headstands. sand makes everything difficult. i could do it... but it sucked. ohh. by that time i realized the my entire back was burnt... crispy. not that it was crispy... but it was really burnt. i put a jacket on. it bugged me tho! then we all watched daniel, kquez, john, & pengs... follow a tradition. & had cupcakes!! chyeah. it was boonie's birthday. then left?? i cant really remember anything after the cupcakes. picture will be up later.


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fourth...blog.

so lately i've been feeling like poo. who knows why. maybe its this bright sunny weather. maybe it's because i haven't seen most of my friends in while. maybe its because i realized that i may never see my friends again maybe it's because it's hot. maybe because my back, shoulders, face, and chest is sunburned (lmao, shut up). maybe it's because i got lectured. maybe it's because i'm broke. maybe it's because i have to wear these stupid rubber-bands. maybe it's because we have to practice in the burning sun every monday & tuesday. maybe it's because i found out i'm not allowed to talk to certain people. maybe it's because my four person family is breaking up. maybe it's because i don't have a boyfriend (-_-). maybe it's because i haven't registered for school yet and i'm already on the dance team. maybe it's because my life just is poo. nah. can't be.

Thirdthe...word?

i needed something that rhymed. =] yesterday (monday) was varsity tryouts. i didnt make it, but it's all good. i'll start off in jv & i'll progress. after all, i'm not flexible, and i can only do a headstand occasionally. i'll learn. we had practice for 4 & a half hours yesterday. we learned the the formations for jv large military. you can see me like most of the time!! woot woot. holla. haha. kay.
i want my braces of NOW. they were supposed to take them off 2 years ago. but noooo. around that time, they were messing up my teeth. like.. there were gaps. i had them for four freaking years!! they said they'd be off by this summer. :( they're not bad at all. i am sooo ready to get them off! they better not have lied to me again. (that doesnt sound like it made sense) my teeth are almost perfect!! uhm, i dont really know what else to say.
oh. laser tagging for the next 3 mondays! hit me up if u wanna go.
call/text (ask for the number), aim, myspace, whatever.

Secondthe(notso)best.

Holla Guuuurl. feeling much better than yesterday. i guess it was just actually letting someone know about it. not like anyone has seen this, yet. today i went to the mall with my mother. it's actually more tiring to go with my mom than with my friends. she was looking for work clothes. we went to stores like macys, that "loft" place, banana republic, stores like that. but on the bright side i went to urban! i got three tops, a skirt, and some shoes. my mom didnt like anything i pickd out because she thought they were too weird and were attention consuming. i liked them! they got my attention. lol. she thinks i'm becoming too much like my ate tania. i don't see that as a bag thing! do you? but it's okay. i'll be back for them when employee appreciation comes around. everythingthat got was on sale, except the shoes. but then it was like $96.96 snd honestly, thats pretty darn low. when we go there, it's like nearly 300. yes, we have a shopping issue. that's why i should never get a credit card. i'd be homeless. but hey, i cant predict the future. so yeah... i came home all tired, bored, and dizzy. oh cr@p... i just remembered i have to take my drug. just kidding! my iron tablet. later. but anywhoooo!
i played basketball with my brother. haha. more like... he shot around, but i blocked. then we played a "real game". so i was dribbling the ball & like he grabbed my neck. so obviously thats a foul. (my free throws were on the stairs. =]) he got all mad and said i was paying fairly so he quit... and i made both free throws. he's a sore loser to the maxx. ohh speaking of which! my brother was playing with my dad. then like... my dad reached for the ball without realzing max (my dog) was in front of him. hahaha. he tripped & fell on my dog. it looked like it hurt.
oms! did i mention what happened at the mall? okay. so my friend texts me about a dude that likes me. the dude's friends start talking crap about me & they think his last crush is better than me! i'm not saying im the best looking piece if shit in the world, but i am definitely better looking than her! oh well. the guys r ugly too. but u know what brought that outta my mind? i saw this reeeeeaally cute guy at urban. =D awesome, isnt it?

kaaay. i'm bored. if u wanna converse, my aim is annoyingcass65.

what my mom didnt want to get me

it didnt look exactly like this, but that's the pair i wanted.

Firsttheworst.

so basically, i feel like sh!t. ever since school let out, i've been doing really crappy. it's summer vacation. i didn't expect much to happen. well not lot if things happened yet. but the things that have already happened are really stupid and making me feel like sh!t. there's no reason for me to feel that way. the first thing that happened, well it's actually funny. i fell and my bruises are bugging the cr@p out of me!
but the thing that sucks the most is, i'm broke. =[ i think i need a job. but i'm only 14. is that even legal, or would that be child labor? haha. lets see, what other problems do i have.
i need to sell lasertag tickets. i "sold" 5. me, jolly, sam, markee, sister. they're (exluding sister) gonna pay when they get there. i don't even know for sure if they're going. i'm still making them pay. i have to sell seven tickets! my friends want it to be like a bonding thing. we're going on july six. if my other friends want to go, obviously i'd have to be there, right? i don't feel like paying that much. i don't even know what laser tag is like. something about shooting lasers? yeah, thats pretty much all i know. woooo.
it's possible i have ADD. or i just have my moments. i get distracted easily... like... mall i bumped into a stupid sunglasses stand! i thought it was pretty funny, except i hit the corner. sad. i stop when i see bright colors in the corner of my eye. same deal with shiny things. crazy.
okaaay. so! there was this dude, right. gosh, i feel like if i say anything it's gonna be too obvious. let's try. there's this dude. he's almost like one of my best friends, but not quite. well, we've been talking for a looooong time. talks a lot. [if he put all the things he's told me in a book, it would be thicker than a dictionary.] he told me he liked me & that made everything awkward & what not. then he said i've changed. truth is, i havent changed!! he only likes my good side. ha. i have a bad side & he doesnt like it. =] i told him i wanted more piercings & a tattoo. haha. he's like you've changed! i don't know you anymore! bring back the old cassidy. and stuff like that. it kinda made me mad. so yeah. he thinks people will look down on my if i have a pierced nose and like... 4 more piercings on each ear. that is soooo not true. & i've been talking to his little brother about things you dont need to know about. my friend is not happy with that. he thinks his brother is fcked up and he's "big brother's" responsibility. they're only one year apart. lets just say, he's a preteen boy!! what do you think they talk about when KUYA is not around? mhmm. and that specific "kuya" is mad cuz i like bad influences. TREY SONGZ IS NOT A BAD INFLUENCE! he just likes s3x. or he likes singing about s3x. & he's jealous that i'm talking to an old dude. he's like 17. i dont like him like that, foo. & i think he's gay... trey songz is older, but he's gorgeous! & obviously there's no chance of getting that. haha. but my friend's just gonna have to deal! what else...
one of my best friends is having family problems. i feel bad. her family thinks she's a bi+ch! this is real talk, homie. xxxx. if you knew her, she is definitely not. i'm more than she is. her fam talks behind her back and all that. they love her, but they dont like her. they're all nice to her in public. i dont really know what's going on at home. yesterday was the worst day of her life according to her. she was bringing me down with her. hmmm. i hope she doesn't do anything to herself. she's not that kinda person tho.
AND MY SISTER! omg. she told my coach (i don't really know what to call her without saying her name) that i said something bad... grr. i said i shouldve been in the front. but i was just pissy cuz i was in the back. x___x' i was in the back cuz i was late & they already had their formation. who knows. i couldve been somewhere else. & my sister's the one who said i was better than some of the people they put in front. but hey, i'm just bitter. which is why i'm gonna die alone. i havent been on the team long, but it's freaking awesome. i'm ready for the stress! even tho i'm kinda weak. but hey.
ohhh. and i'm anemic. anyone wanna tell me what that means? i know it means i dont have a lot of iron & can lead to lukemia, but what else? can i die from it? that's kinda scary. i still have stuff to say!
i havent signed up for school yet. :P that's bad right? i can't sign up anytime soon because they're dealing with graduation and everything right now. i have to do it at the end of july or the first week of august. all my friends already finished. am i gonna get stuck with all the sucky classes!? hopefully not. most likely, because school starts in september and a lot of people already signed up & stuff. oh well. imma get lost and junk. just thought i'd tell you.

this stuff might not really be a big deal. i just thought u should know why i feel like sh!t and maybe it's my period making everything seem worse than it really is. i dont see how that actually works tho.

well... peace out.