Day 3

I'm totally failing on this diet. Monday (day 1) I was going pretty strong! We even bought more fruit for me to juice and stuff! But my sister, who has no discipline, got faded and decided to eat after class. Getting her and her friends second hand, I got hungry too. It wasn't just that I ate; it was that I ate fried chicken, calamari, and pork. WTF.

Day 2(Tuesday) I failed miserably, it all started with that bite of Pauline's ice cream sandwich. Then she made me finish it... Couldn't say no, unfortunately, then when I got home, there was fried chicken and pork. And I dont even eat pork! Then I saw ice cream. Cookies & cream. Ugh. -.-Then I drank 2 bottles of water to make up for it. 

I went to the mall and eating only half of a half portion of pesto pasta. PASTA HAS CARBS. But it was soooo good. I took the other half home. Then I fell asleep at like 830.

Today, I had a bite of the left over pasta and a piece of grapefruit, but grapefruit is good. So yeah. Well see how today goes...

Wish me luck 

What if I'm that someone I know?

Still got it!

I don't wanna complain anymore

It's time to focus on the positivity in my life. From now on, no more posts about boys. Boys are bad. Haha
So today marks the day I start my liquid diet. I'm planning on doing it for a week and then seeing how it goes. My ate Stacey lost 9 pounds in 10 days!
Looked up this diet and it says you can only consume juiced fruits and vegetables, tea, and water, with the exception of milk and yogurt.
So far I've just had coffee. Coffee is a natural product and I read somewhere that it makes you shit, and I need that in my life, haha. Creamer is dairy and dairy makes me shit also, therefore coffee with creamer but no sugar is okay in my book.
I also made apple-carrot juice with lemon. It actually tastes really good! I tried to juice broccoli just so I'd have a vegetable in there, but the juicer almost exploded haha. But I guess it's fine! I was gonna make a smoothie, but someone hid the blade for my magic bullet from me -.- it's cuz I'm messy.
I also made dieters tea with lemon. It's supposed to make you shit, but it doesn't work for me. Oh well! I don't really care, it's liquid and it's supposed to help.
So I have my schedule for consumption today:
Breakfast: coffee
Snack: water
Lunch: juice
After school: water
Dinner: tea
And any time I have a craving, water with lemon.

I think I can do this diet for a while. I just want my magic bullet -,-
Another good thing about this, you're supposed to be in a rested state, which means I shouldn't undergo strenuous exercise! Which is ideal for my lazy ass. Sauna for life!
I'm so excited. Finally something I can go! Wish me luck.

hello again! so yeah.... life. i dont even know what im feeling anymore. i guess you could say i've reached emotional paralysis. just kidding, its not that bad. i am basically coping with the sadness i was struck with in december. i think what i'm feeling is a mixture of regret, guilt, and sadness. i'm sure theres more to it than that. i don't like thinking about it too much. i feel an intense frustration with myself, thats for sure. my emotions are affecting me physically as well. its as if my nerves are feeling the stress as well! i guess when they say, "getting on my nerves," it could literally mean senses! at least in my case, it does. anyways, on a brighter note! i've been listening to really chill music. i am in love with corinne bailey rae. shes a goddess to me, oh my god. her songs arent depressing for the most part and i just feel so calm- like a musical high. her voice is so perfect. haha.