why does it matter to you where i am, what i'm doing, and why i'm doing it? it shouldn't matter. if i go to a dance competition, dance class, dance anything that is not drill team, why do you care? don't make fun of me because i'm doing what i want to do. especially if you don't have a legit reason to make fun of me. like there ever will be a good reason to make fun of anyone.

Difficult times

Hello. Well, anyways i just got off the phoned with cassidy and i think i should write something right now. Ummmm this is Jeremiah Bernardino and im sort of hacking my girlfriends blogger :) Sowwie Cassidy for the way i acted tonight and for always making u feel like your the bad girlfriend. I don't mean those bad things. I always bring Josh in to the conversation and being angry and say that u don't care about me. Saying mean stuff like i don't trust you. That's not how i truly feel. Iknow that u care and ikno she is trustworthy. I'm not lying about this.....u are a good girlfriend no matter what i say when i'm angry! You are not a bad girlfriend who doesn't do anything. i'm not lying to myself you are amazing. I'm really not doing all these things for you cuz i have too. I love caring about you, worrying about you, being with you, talking to u, laughing with you, and just plain loving you. I don't want to do that for anyone else. No one else is worth it besides you....Really!!!!!!!!!!!! you care about me cuz it does make u feel bad in what i say......Your are perfect for me and i'll never leave you it still hasn't change i still love you....and i don't want you to think breaking up is the best solution. i really hope u don't break up with me cuz things will never be the same. I'm will never get over you cassidy! You are my one and only! My forever!!! it might sound cliche and naive but i really feel that way....never want to leave you. Please believe me!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!! <3

being bisexual is just a transition to being completely homosexual.

just get it over with and just say your gay. we'll accept you either way.

SO FULL.

let's go running tomorrow night. no? i am okay with that.

yuck... summer already?

so if you're a close friend of mine, you would know how much i hate my body. i think it's disgusting and fat and undesirable in all ways possible. sure, i'm young and it shouldn't matter because i can easily burn it off, right? but what if i'm too lazy? too busy to put in effort? ugh, i don't know. i wish i could change the way i look. but thanks to my lack of patience and trabajdora-ness, i am not able to. every time i look in the mirror, i wanna gag. sometimes even cry. yeah, i know that's a little much, but its true. i've been dealing with mood swings lately. don't know. i hate my reflection. i hate looking down. i hate everything. why can't i be satisfied with myself? why can't i have the confidence others have? plain and simple. i'm 4'11 and i weigh 107 lb. that probably may not seem bad, but it definitely looks bad. it's different for taller people. even tall people weigh less than me. i wanna get rid of the fat so badly that i've even considered purging and not eating. i mean, for a fact i am starting to eat less. it saves my dad (who just lost his job) money, and i guess i lose weight? yeah, i don't know. the team is having a beach trip this friday.... i'm too afraid to show my body in a swimsuit. it would look so gross. today i tried on a one-piece suit to cover my mid, and i looked so terrible. i just hate my body. i would exercise and diet and stuff. but truth be told, i am way too lazy to do anything. i'm an idiot. i'll just be fat with my 50 piece nuggets under the rainbow umbrella on the sand. jk, i cant afford that either.

Im really tired of people.

it's your life. i don't care what you do.

it always seems that you think more logically when you're single. you tend to give more relationship advice that actually makes sense; but when you're dating someone after a period of being single, all the relationship you gave before doesn't apply and your relationship starts going downhill slowly. my advice to you: stay single.